hmm , nak start macam mane ekk ? :\ well , i know i'm not suppost to think negatively about him working but , these thoughts has always been running through my brain andd i'm sorry if what i expressed in this post hurts your feelings . sharil :( i didn't meant to .

it's been almost a week since you've been working . i tried my best to be the best for you . to be patient andd wait for you every single seconds while you were working . hmm , if only i am always there beside you , watching you from far whatever you did but sure nanti you cakap i ni macam ape ntahh , kan ? seriously , i am jealous bile tengok kawan kawan you kerje , still boleh hang around , at least spent time pergi minum or chat dengan awek diorang lepas kerje but i sedar , i ni duduk jauh . yeahh , kota damansara dengan ttdi memang macam beribu batu :( but kalaw diorang boleh why not you ?

seriously , there was one day , i betul betul kecik hati dengan you . sehari suntukk you tak cari i , not even a single 'call me back' notification u kasi . tau tau , i call you , bila i tanye you kat mane , you boleh cakap " i kat tempat memancing " . am i bothering your life ?! sedih gile tahu tak , i waited for you padahal you cakap kat i u penat and whatsoever .

i'm sorry but i rase sejak you dah start kerje ni , kite dah tak rapat macam dulu . i ni masih wujud lagi ke dalam life you ? seriously lah , i dah cuba untukk bersabar but you keep ignoring me . i faham sangat sangat sayang kenapa you kerja keras sangat andd i respect keputusan or ape you buad but please , bahagi masa you jugak untuk i , i rasa sunyi bilee tak ada you tahu . sejakk kita couple , i jee yang tercari cari you , sampai kadang kadang orang cakap i ni syok sendiri . andd yes , i memang buad bodoe dengan ape diorang cakap but deep dalam hati , it hurts you know :'(  i call you , nak tahu pasal you , u marah marah i , i pun tak tahu lah ape salah i . bile i tanye u rindu i , all you jawab is " TAK " . bagi u maybe ia satu gurauan but itu nyakitkan hati i tahu , padahal i ni rindukan you separuh mati tahu tak ! kalaw sebab kes nik dulu andd kes u dgn ex you dulu , you jadi mcm ni , i mintak maaf , i takde niat nk lukakn hati you . but hati you nampak sangat dah tertutup . macam dah takde ruang untukk i , sikit pun kan ? - cryingg*

please accept me as i am , sharil . nak dekat 7 bulan you , andd all we did is fighting ! i teringin nak ade sweet moment dengan you . macam mana i nak tahu you sayang i sedangkan you macam jauhkan diri dari i ,  perkataan " i love you " pun macam you berat mulut nk cakap kat i ! jujur i cakap , i sendiri keliru you syg i ataw tak but i diam jee nk tengok you mcm mana . seriously , tiap kali i nangis , i dah tatahu nk mengadu dekat siape kecuali kawan you sendiri , bard . dye pun takleh nak wat ape sebab dye pernah cakap kat i , hati u keras untukk terima seseorg sebab u pernah disakiti oleh someone you syg sgt dulu . even kakak you cakap mcm tu . andd now , i ni ape ? i ni siape ? if i am really your girlfriend , future wife , please . bukak hati you , buang ego you . 

kalaw ade satu permintaan i boleh buat , i wish that you bukak hati you untuk i . let me prove to you that i can be the best for you rather than any other else , sayang , please :'(